Do you ever feel like you can't relax? I've been in the Hamptons 4 days, and I'm just now finally starting to slow down my speed from hyper speed city life, to laid back beach living. It's no surprise that when I first started practicing yoga seriously several years ago, Savasana always seemed difficult to me. "Just lie there? Don't do anything? What do you mean? Nothing? What is the point?" My brain would be in a battle with my teacher. I was never able to fully relax. And what did I find in my life at that time? I was anxious. I was unable to stop moving. I was unable to take a day off. I had to keep working because if I stopped, I would fall behind. I couldn't fall behind. Everything rested on the work I was doing, every day, every moment.
Or so I thought.
I was not getting anywhere. The things I worked so hard at and kept so busy with meant nothing after a while. I started realizing all of my goals had no real purpose. I kept coming to my mat because I kept finding purpose there. I kept finding meaning. I started craving the stillness. I started noticing how tired I actually was-- not just physically, but also mentally & emotionally. I was beaten up. The person who did the beating was me. I didn't give myself time to relax.
So last summer (as everyone in my life knows), I ran away to the beach. There in the sun of Egypt Beach in East Hampton, I developed my own daily practice. I woke up daily and biked to the deserted beach to practice. On my own, I let the sun and the crashing sound of the waves heal me. I forgave myself. Accepted myself. I challenged myself. And finally, I was able to lie completely still--mind still, body still-- in Savasana for 15 minutes. Total relaxation.
I had never taken a meditation course. I had never been told that the point of yoga was to still & prepare the mind for meditation. But on that quiet beach with waves crashing & sun glowing, my natural inclination was to sit tall, still and without constant badgering of my mind. I felt the closest to God in that one moment than any other moment in my life. That moment brings me back to my mat daily. Savasana is the game changer. Being totally in Savasana brings me right back to that blissful beach moment with God.
How can you bring more Savasana to your life? How can you disconnect from the chaos and reconnect to that which matters most? How can you find a few quite moments with your soul?
It's something I have to consciously work towards every week, every day. But it is so, so worth it:) Yoga bliss happens in Savasana. Life bliss happens when you slow down enough to notice how beautiful and wonderful things really are.
Wishing you a day of bliss and peace as you prepare for the *unofficial* start to summer this weekend!